sunday night.
2:00am.
for the first time,
just saw some photos of
liz
posted to flickr by anya
and i lost my shit.
photos of
liz
(almost all taken by me)
have brought me
lots of comfort
over the past few weeks,
but these were different.
these photos were taken
by someone else
during happy times
that i wasn’t a part of…
her bachelorette party
and
various girls-only weekends.
all of a sudden
now i think i know what
it’s like
to look at this from
a strangers perspective
and it’s awful.
i found myself
thinking the
same things everyone
else has said,
“what a beautful woman”
“so full of life”
“can’t believe she’s gone”
holy shit i miss
liz
so much right now.
(((some manly bro hugs))) cute lady.
ReplyDeleteThat's a beautiful picture.
ReplyDeleteIt is quite the eye opener to see our losses through the eyes of others. I am always curious when I see photos of those I love that predate my relationship with them or happened at a point when I was absent for some reason. It's like this cool little gift that I wasn't expecting and was blessed with anyway.
lovely photo of Liz :-)
ReplyDeletethanks for posting this because I thought it was only me that reacted like that! Whenever I see a photo of Cliff that I haven't seen before, it catches me out. I find myself holding my breath - or does it take my breath away? - Im not sure. Then I can't stop staring at it.
But I'm fine with the ones that I've already seen.
I knew this intuitively, right at the beginning, that I wasn't ready to look at other people's photos of Cliff back then (it was irrelevant whether they were taken before we were together ... any photos!), but I'm getting there. Slowly.
Michelle, I've tried to contact you on the SS website and keep getting an error message. I'd like to have more details about Camp Widow/er: usual age of attendees, cost, date, workshop topics, speakers. It sounds exciting. Looking forward to hearing from you.
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