That's what got me through the first year.
Well ... that's not actually true.
It was chocolate mainly*. I am addicted. Its not a good thing.
...and I actually hate red wine, so it was more of a Baileys or Bundaberg Rum thing I had going on. And not that much really as I am not a big drinker.
But the title "Chocolate and red wine" sounded better in my head than "Lots of chocolate and a good stare into the liquor cabinet before deciding on a hot chocolate anyway".
That being said, there were times when I said to myself "if you drank all of that, it would make the pain go away for a while". Luckily I am also very smart, so another bit of my brain immediately reminded the "lets get drunk" part of my brain that vomiting and a headache would really not help all that much in the morning.
The current issue is that I need to wean myself off chocolate.
It has become a crutch that I need to lose
It wasn't always this way though ..... I couldn't eat ANYTHING for a week after Greg died. I lived on diet shakes that I had in the pantry as I just could not swallow any solid food. But when I did start eating, it involved a lot of comfort food. including chocolate.
So while you are playing along at home (probably nodding along - tell me I am not alone here PLEASE), tell me what you do to break a bad habit, 'cause I need some ideas..... or at least a low fat version of "chocolate".
* - OK so it was really my kids and my parents and friends that got me through the first year, but chocolate helped too.
