When the heck did that happen?
In about a month it will be May and in May I will have been without my love for 5 years.
Blows my mind.
At this time 5 years ago, he had just surprised me with a 2 week R&R from Iraq.
On April 9th I would kiss him goodbye...and now, 5 years later, I have to wait a bit longer than expected for one more...but, on the brink of this "milestone", my heart is quiet, my eyes dry, and my pride and love for him at an all time high.
It could be the calm before some storm....but it may not.
You never know.
In the past it has been the anticipation leading up to the date that is the most miserable, and I think, for once, I'm pulling up my sails, throwing on the life jacket, and ready to ride this storm...and I know I can survive it.
I don't know where time has gone, but in the nearly five years I've seen the pain and suffering be replaced with contentment and smiles. There were times where I didn't want to accept that that was feasible, but now I'm proud to know I've been able to do so...for him...for me.
I wish I had more to say or share, but there's just calm right now...balance...and sometimes I don't quite know what to do without, other than just accept it for whatever time being, and keep the rain coat tucked away for another day.
- Louisa May Alcott