One of the things I've maintained since Ian died is a theatre subscription with a couple of friends. It gives me an opportunity to flex the grey-matter and escape to other worlds.
Over the weekend I went to a show I'd been looking forward too in terms of performer and composer. It was a short, caberet style show and was a fantastic showcase for the solo performer, and I could hear the composer's influence.
However the show sat uneasily with me, and it took me a while to figure out why.
The story covered the death/disappearance of the character's mother when he was a young child. And the story line implied that he was not told which it was - she died or she simply left until later in life.
I found it completely bizzare that a child wasn't told; left to try and make sense of what's happening around him.
The show was strange generally, but this plot-point ment I just could not engage with the show. There was a mental block I couldn't overcome.
I can't imagine not telling John that Ian died.
I couldn't pretend that Ian just up and left us.
It makes me wonder how I would have engaged with this show if I'd seen it before Ian died. If that plot point would have bothered me at all.
If I'd even notice it at all.
This is a sign of you, growing.
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