What a great opportunity to really take stock and think about what you would regret if today was really the last day. As New Years approaches and we have the usual self assessment and diet/exercise or life improvements, I find myself thinking of what I want to change or improve.
I want to take better care of my body - it's getting older and is starting to require more maintenance...ugh. If today isn't the end of the world, my recent physical indicates I could live for very long time and I want to make sure I'm moving around comfortably for the next 50 years... :)
I want to take better care of my spirit. Recently I saw a quote about people having the habit of complaining about the bad and only appreciating momentarily the good. I want to celebrate my joys and talk about them more often.
I want to take better care of my loved ones. I want to be more present and more expressive of my appreciation for all they are and how much they mean to me.
I want to take better care of strangers - people I don't know, people who need help. I can do more with the blessings I have been given.
Most of all I want to live each day deliberately. One of the clearest lessons of my widowhood has been the shortness of life. This is all we have. Despite the potholes or canyons in our path, we have to persevere. We have to find our way and we have to find our joy. My new Baktun (next Mayan calendar) resolution is to keep my eyes on the joys in my life. Even when everything looks dark, a little light is there somewhere. I'm going to focus on the light.