We write about widowhood as we live it. Together we examine the good, the bad, and the ugly parts of life as a widowed person. The views expressed here are those held by each individual author. We take no credit for their brillance; we just provide them with a forum for expressing their widowed journey in words that are uniquely their own.
Thursday, September 2, 2010
not what I imagined
it's been three
years since i was
here, in the place
that appears to be
the end of the earth.
my life is
much different now than
i imagined it would be,
(whose isn't, right?)
but being here makes
it seem like
nothing has changed.
that blue building
where we stayed is
still there.
i just walked
past it.
the boats in the harbor
continue to ferry tourists
to the fishing spots,
and the deckhands
still give the
same stories to avoid
cleaning the cod.
i'm here now.
feeling like i did back
then, but today when
i get off the boat
with my brother,
liz
won't be waiting
for us at the
bar with the money
on the walls.
but i'll go
and sit there anyway,
with my him and his
friends, trying to figure
out how to say
something funny enough
to make them laugh
when all i want
to do is
disappear for awhile.
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I totally understand...
ReplyDeleteLori
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