We write about widowhood as we live it. Together we examine the good, the bad, and the ugly parts of life as a widowed person. The views expressed here are those held by each individual author. We take no credit for their brillance; we just provide them with a forum for expressing their widowed journey in words that are uniquely their own.
Saturday, June 22, 2013
Breathe
The sun would seep through the doors.
My eyes would blink with hesitation.
Fear.
They'd open and it would hit my heart like a sledgehammer.
The stark fact that I was still breathing.
The thought of knowing that I had a possible 60 more seconds, let alone 5 minutes, let alone another day, was my hell.
It was the beginning days and months of Michael's death.
Then the minutes became bearable. And then the days. And then I would play with the thought of making plans a week ahead.
This was the beginning.
The end.
And now, in retrospect, the days I have pride in knowing I held on.
1 second.
2.
3.
Breathe.
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I am having on of those days where I can't seem to focus. At almost 2 years I am fed up with this whole grieving crap. Your post reminds me how far I have come and to be kind to myself. Thanks
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