Tuesday, June 25, 2013

Extremely late and incredibly sorry

What can I say - I am on holidays and holiday time has hit me.  Sorry.

That and I have some epic crap going on behind the scenes ... one thing to do with the fall out from Greg's death (still) and the other to do with my brother's health (send him good vibes on Friday please).

While I have found some time to have fun these school holidays (ie - go out and take photos), I feel like I have a massive concrete block hanging over my head as I wait for Friday to be gone. 
I can't go into details but the thought of going back into the hell of the facts has got me dredging up the hard stuff  that I don't think about.
I know he is dead, but this stuff gets me thinking about the *how* of his death.  My nightmares ( can you have day-mares because this stuff comes when I am not asleep) are not pretty.  The horror is something I don't think I will ever be rid of .... so I stuff it to the back of my mind.

So sorry for my late post today.  I hope that by next week I won't feel like I am being crushed under the weight of my world.


  1. You are entitled to be "late", Your posts are a gift -not an obligation. Hence, there is no need to worry, I am finding that grief cares little for timelines.
    Day-mares also haunt my waking hours. Ironically, the nights (when I sleep through) are not so tortuous.
    I will send good thoughts to your brother. May he be well.

  2. Amanda,we all appreciate the love you send our way in your posts. We know your struggles, as we walk in much the same shoes. My Tom passed away June 21,2012. The support derived from this on-line community sustains me. Now if I could just figure out how to get eight hours sleep a night-oh well. Sending good wishes to your brother and love to all.

  3. Sending good vibes to your brother today.

    Maria O.