|Me enjoying my wedding dress - 2005|
Sunday, June 30, 2013
This week I am at Camp Widow West (Woop!).
Since I’m at camp I’ll save my typing (on my phone) and will spill the beans next week about my experience at camp.
This week I want to share something I have been thinking about.
For Camp Widow I HAD to have an amazing dress.. well in my head I thought I had to have the perfect dress.
With limited funds and a sense of panic, an amazing person came to my rescue.
I was given a dress that had never been worn.
This wasn't just a dress. It was THE dress.
This dress was more amazing then I envisioned. When I put it on, I carefully did a little twirl, skip and a hop.
This dress made me feel.. Important.
When I sent it in to be altered I had extreme anxiety about it.
What if they mess up my dress? What if I have to find another dress right before camp? What if? What if?
It dawned on me I had more anxiety over my Camp Widow dress getting altered then I did my wedding dress.
Why? I don’t know. I guess because if my wedding dress was wrong, I was still getting married either way.. even if I had to wear pajama’s.
But my Camp Widow dress? I couldn't just show up in my pajama’s…
well they would have accepted me no matter what I was wearing, but in my head, this was (is) a huge event.
I've been thinking about how some of my favorite memories involve me wearing a big fancy dress. Prom, my wedding and now.. camp widow.
I realized I very rarely get to wear a fancy dress. There are very few occasions to wear one to.
There are very few occasions where dancing the night away in a fancy dress is a given.
So now I get to brag and show off my dress!!
Tada!! Aren't you amazed? Yah I know, me too!!
Okay, I am done bragging.
To the person that donated this dress to me… thank you for the bottom of my soul. The dress has become a part of me. Every time I see it hanging up in my closet I will always remember the amazing memories made at Camp Widow. I promise you, one day I will pay it forward.
I will help a widow in need, even if it means passing this dress on. So Thank You!!