Saturday, October 29, 2011


“I love that moment. When you’re on a long car ride, or listening to music, or reading. And you completely zone out. You forget your troubles, and everyone around you. You’re focused on that one thing, and that one thing only. You’re content, and everything seems peaceful.”- Unknown

I savor these moments.

After Michael was killed I had to remind myself when they were happening, but ironically knew right away when they were taking place. Almost as if my mind couldn't believe that peace and a quiet smile was possible.

I savor these moments even more, even though they come around more often.

They're no longer a shock to my system.

They are a gift I excitedly tear open to savor for whatever period of time that is.

Life is finite.

These moments are too.

But it doesn't matter...

These moments are happening and it's all I could ask for.

Waking up to my dog curling his tail and stretching. Watching the biography channel over a glass of wine. Listening to Coldplay echo in he background. Feeling the breeze as I take out the trash. Smiling with a dear friend. Laughing at the random moments of beauty and awkwardness that plague any widow.

That's life.

A quilt of moments...good..bad...unexpected...expected...

My own little odd paradise.


  1. beautiful post. thank you.

  2. Taryn, this is beautiful and poignant. I just love those moments when I lose myself and find I'm smiling for no other reason than I'm happy.


  3. The spiritual and personal changes and awakenings I have experienced since my husband's death three years ago have made me more aware of the "moments" of life. I truly live in the moment now and find meaning in the simplest things.

  4. Yes. A beautiful post.

    I find myself noticing moments like these. Colourful maples lit up against a crisp blue sky. And I'm mindful of these beautiful moments, but still unable to enjoy them as of yet. But I am noticing that they're not as painful as last fall.

  5. Being "in the flow" is the best. It would be great to have the ability to maintain that state of mind, because as they say, we truly only live in the present moment. When I have been in my deepest grief I will often use that coping skill to pull myself out, I focus on what is and what I am doing in that one moment. Very good post, and so true!

  6. I agree, beautiful post and nice reminder to appreciate the moments.